Ian Dunbavin said he is still getting his head around the injury which has prematurely ended his best season.
The 32-year-old stopper had a shoulder operation eight days ago and it looks likely he won’t play again in this campaign.
"I can’t get my head around it to be honest," said Dunbavin. "I just can’t put into words how upset and disappointed I am.
"I know it’s part and parcel of the sport and I guess I am lucky that, at 32, I have never picked up a serious injury on my hand or upper body before, but it is hard to deal with at the moment."
Dunbavin admitted it was a shock when he got the news he needed surgery on a niggly injury made worse in the recent matches against Gillingham and Rotherham.
"I have had a few problems in the past but nothing that has ever stopped me playing," continued the former Liverpool trainee.
"There was a challenge in the game against Gillingham – I felt like I had been shot in the arm but then I seemed to get through that.
"Then I played again on Tuesday against Rotherham and landed awkwardly.
"I knew it wasn’t right and went for a scan on Wednesday and then the specialist said I needed an operation and that was carried out last Thursday.
"It is a whole reconstruction of my left shoulder. It was a three-hour operation and it’s apparently the equivalent to a cruciate ligament injury. It’s a serious operation."
It is such a shame for Dunbavin who has been at the club since their first Football League season in 2006.
He has battled to be the number one for years but Paul Cook put his full trust in the stopper at the start of this season to be his first choice and Dunbavin didn’t disappoint.
Similarly, Leam Richardson backed his keeper all the way and that’s what makes it all the more galling for Dunbavin.
"I have been in my best form and I think that has come from confidence from the managers but also from the crowd.
"Since I have been first choice they have backed me all the way, got right behind me and they have helped me play to my best and that has meant a lot."
A stand-out statistic is that Dunbavin has saved three penalties this season – although one was ordered to be retaken at Barnet. But his best game was at Morecambe where he single-handedly kept out the Shrimps’ attack – including denying Richard Brodie from the spot in the final minute to ensure Stanley came away with a draw.
"Sometimes you have games where everything goes right for you and you do feel like nothing will get past you and that was one of them."
Now he admits it will be hard watching current replacement keeper Paul Rachubka, below, in his spot and whoever the Reds sign in January, if the loanee returns to Leeds.
"I know it won’t be easy. It’s totally different to getting dropped when you suffer a loss of form where you can battle to get your place back," he added.
"It will be hard watching someone else but that doesn’t mean I won’t back them 100 per cent.
"It’s not all about me, it’s about the team and while I am disappointed, I know we have got the players at the club to improve our current position and go on a good run of games which will hopefully have us challenging for the top seven.
"I am right behind Paul and all the lads have been great with their messages and the fans too. It certainly helps."
Dunbavin can’t say yet whether there is any possibility that he he will be back before May and, while his contract is up in the summer, he has also taken up a coaching role at the club and so he has his sights set on a future at the Crown Ground.
"It’s impossible to say when I will be back as I am just getting my head around it but my aim is to come back stronger and better," vowed the stopper.
"I have been at Accrington the longest I have been at any club and I am really happy here.
"I am doing coaching as well and, while I am concentrating at the moment on getting over the operation, I will be trying to get back into the club when I can to help out.
"Leam has been superb and, like I said, the fans have also sent messages of support which I really appreciate."